Alone

Alone

Loneliness wrapped around my soul.
Longing flooded my heart.
Alone.

On paper it is written -
we belong together.
And the ring on my finger says it.
But I am alone.

My body, my soul,
they are alone,
and my thoughts are buzzing around
they do not reach you.
Because you're not there.

The cold of the empty space
penetrates deep into me.
And the longing for you,
for a hug, a kiss,
for closeness and tenderness,
is omnipresent.

Alone.

And with every hour of solitude,
every day and every night,
is only loneliness in the arms,
and the knowledge of pain,
of life without you.

Alone is alone.
Only with waiting and longing.

The dream of love

The dream of love

 
I see you

and it gets me.

Your smile is so honest,

that is dangerous for my heart.

 

Your look is open

and I feel my heart pounding.

You laugh at me,

my heart can not defend himself.

 

It is done, it is love,

I come to see you again!

You stroke my hair,

I tremble all over, which is quite clear!

 

You kiss me gently,

love is already a great power!

I will miss you never again

forever in my heart you stay.

 

To have you,

this is one of the greatest gifts.

You hold me intimately, saying softly, "I love you"

and the happiest man I am!

 

But what is it?

An alarm clock ringing, oh, how I hate this!

I wake up smiling.

Now I recognize, it was all just a dream.

 

I ask myself:

"Where are you", because I'm looking for only one, namely you!

I turn the alarm off, because it's Sunday and back to sleep.

Now I can be with you again and hold you in my dreams.

Colorful dream

Colorful dream

I climb
to the rainbow
and touch
  a ray of sunshine

See
  in the sky
   hanging violins

Visit
the castle in the moonlight
and pluck
me a star

Open
the raindrops tap
which fall
knock windows

Then
I fall
from the clouds 

I realize

It was
only
a colorful dream
  in my everyday grey.

A bad romance

A bad romance

It all started with a passionate kiss.

Slowly addicted, I got to your venomous lips.

Your poison, I craved,

to your love, I became a slave.

Breathing in, the impure air of worship,

your tainted lips made me high when we kissed.

Trapped,  everyday I kissed you more,

And got lured to your gloomy, evil core.

And like a hungry animal on knees,

I gladly paid unconditional love's fee.

For your love, I must confess;

Spread like a toxin in my blood.

In return for love, you destroyed my heart,

Ripped, from my chest and tore it apart.

My red  slowly turned grey,

In your love I was betrayed.

The price of your love made me sick,

For you gave me betrayal's kiss.

And now broken and sad,  I wish I had never started,

Our passionate but "Bad Romance".

A Romantic Date

A romantic date

Outside her house I'm waiting expectantly,

Awaiting for her, my heart beats a little nervously.

She's late as usual but I don't mind, at least not yet,

She'll say, "I was getting ready for you." no doubt, I bet.

She's here at last and only an hour late,

A beautiful woman, it was worth the wait.

Roses, her favourite, I give them to her,

And take her to the car with a chauffeur.

I have booked a table at an exclusive place,

Wishing that she'll be amazed.

We reach the restaurant; I open the car door,

Guide her to the table with beautiful candles and decor.

Soothing music plays, as we sit under the moon-light,

The waiter arrives with the wine, perfectly timed.

My nervousness increases, as she finishes her drink,

Only to find at the bottom, a beautiful diamond ring.

The moment is here and I'm down on my knees,

I muster some courage to ask, "Will you marry me?"

It changed my life, what happened next,

The two words she said, "Definitely,  yes."

Eyes never lie..!!

Cunning promises,
Sworn to God but broken.
Fake smile, hiding truth,
Love or Deceit, unspoken.


Clarity doubted,
statements unaccounted.
Hidden wishes,
Crippled with stitches.


Cloaked reality,
succumbed to life's brutality.
Humans enslaved,
deceptive are word games.


So don't look at,
look inside.
No veil can hide,
the truth we cite.


Because eyes never lie,
even when lips do.
Mind betrays,
heart shows the truth.

Oh Fool Let Go !!

Oh fool let go,
Oh fool let go,
let go your desires,
coz' world is dust and ashes,
what remains after, are just flashes.

Day and Night reckoning,
what do you possess?
But as you leave this world,
nothing is retained but death.

Oh fool let go,
Oh fool let go,
let go your hungry thirst,
coz' nothing lasts, all goes away,
only but some good memories stay.

Running behind riches,
quenching for more and more,
though riches comes and goes,
still, why do you hope?

Oh fool let go,
Oh fool let go,
let go the greed for more,
coz' the day when you die,
you will realize, what is being alive?

As life begins,
world laughs and you cry.
But love so true that after death,
you will laugh and world cry.

Oh fool let go,
Oh fool let go,
let go the hate in you,
coz' as time passes by,
everything will end, the final dawn will arrive.

What's she like?

What's she like?
a thought,
I've hold too long;
But now,
I will sing this song.


She is a Rose,
so beautiful yet warm,
deep red, her velveteen petals,
lovely to behold,
innocently pretty,
growing in wilderness,
a coy damsel
oblivious of her own beauty.


She is a white pearl,
the blue ocean's infinity,
away from beauty or cruelty,
defining simplicity,
like no others,
a kind of rare breed,
crystal of milky white
eliminating darkness.


She is a free bird,
flying against the wind,
daring to dream,
claiming the sky,
quickly to move on
midst the orange rays,
writing her own fable,
fulfilling her fate.

Pain of Losing

All the pain I feel inside,
It hurts more and more each day, I hide.
The pain of losing them will never go
away,
I'm tired of feeling like this everyday.

It hurts to loose a friend,
it gives you the saddest frown.
Who can you be yourself around?
To pick you up when you are down.

All the pain I feel inside,
It hurts more and more each day, I hide.
The pain of losing them will never go
away,
I'm tired of feeling like this everyday.

I remember the time not long ago,
Without them, I would not know what to do.
Time apart from them has made me see,
How much truly they mean to me.

All the pain I feel inside,
It hurts more and more each day, I hide.
The pain of losing them will never go
away,
I'm tired of feeling like this everyday.

I've lost everyone that meant the world to me,
No truer friends could there ever be.
I am going to miss them,
Maybe never to meet again.

All the pain i feel inside,
It hurts more and more each day, I hide.
The pain of losing them will never go
away,
I'm tired of feeling like this everyday.

The Craziest Thing

 The Craziest Thing


















"What is the craziest thing you have done for a girl?"

"Well, I have traveled hundreds of kilometers to be with a girl on her birthday,
written poems for her, spent numerous hours watching stupid movies so that I
could share a moment with her, sung songs for her, made a heart of candles and
roses with our initials engraved on it, quoted 101 reasons why I Love Her,
on a beach with all those people around I've got down on my knees to say her 'I Love You'."

"This is really sweet. But, what's so crazy about it?"

"The crazy thing? Well, I had said her, even if she would be the last girl on earth,
I won't date her. But as we all know, God works in mysterious ways.
He made me fall in love and do all these stupid sweet things for the same girl.
Its been the craziest thing in my life. My craziest journey."

"She might have hated you"

"Maybe, I guess. Did you?"

If not for your care

Sometimes I wonder,

If not for your messages
about what I eat,
I would surely be
a little more lean.

If not for your calls
inquiring about my health,
I would be lying
on a hospital bed.

If not for your teasing
about what I wear,
I would be moving
in torn clothes and rags.

If not for your nagging
about my beard,
I would look like
a dacoit without fear.

If not for your care
though different it may be,
I would be miserable
and survive barely.

Time

Time.

The Past
haunt's me,
it is dead,
mistakes,
memories,
pain,
plague,
in my mind,
it will stay.

The Present
awe's me,
a gift,
is now,
take it
or
leave it,
is moving,
it won't wait.

The Future
taunt's me,
a dream,
beautiful
or ugly,
is unknown
is distant
but
it will come.

Image: Courtesy of Melvin Sabu.
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I Believe

I believe.

When I was Hated,
YOU gave me Love.

When I was Crying,
YOU made me Smile.

When I was Broke,
YOU held me Tight.

When I was Lost,
YOU gave me a Path.

When I fell Down,
YOU helped me Up.

When I was in Pain,
YOU gave me Joy.

When I was Lonely,
YOU gave me Comfort.

When I had lost Faith,
YOU made me a BELIEVER.

When I Saw You.

 

 

When I saw you.

When I saw you, you seemed like;

like a blooming rose,
like a girl whom any guy would propose.

When I saw you, you seemed like;
like a thin ray of light,
like a burning candle in dark night.

When I saw you, you seemed like;
like the breeze of fresh air,
like my mother's love and care.

When I saw you, you seemed like;
like a beautiful wave of the sea,
like you were always meant for me.

A Lovable Guy

A guy out there
is meant for you,
to be the love of your life,
to be your best friend and soul mate.

He'll brush the hair
out of your eyes,
He'll send you flowers
when you least expect.

He'll stare at you
during movies,
He'll quote poetry for you
though he may sound goofy.

He'll buy gifts and dresses
which may not be the best,
He'll call and message all time
to show that he cares.

He'll try,
do everything,
to keep you happy,
to keep you safe.

But you aren't
going to be his first or his only.
He has loved before,
but if he loves you now what else matters?

He is not perfect,
You aren't either,
But you both
will be perfect together.

Remember, he loves you,
in every possible way.
So hold him tight
and never let him out of sight.

(Note- My version of Nicholas Sparks Quote.) 

Arrange Marriage

"Son, I found you a girl,
You are 23, ready for the challenge,
To be a Husband
and give me a Grandson"
said my Father.

Uncomfortable silence
Lingering in the air;
Far from speaking,
Confused and bewildered there I stand.

A low and hesitated voice
finally emerged,
"But Father I don't know that girl.
How can I marry some-one
without being in Love?
Let me search,
please wait, till I find True Love"

"Don't be naive."
my Father urged,
"Meet that girl,
you will learn to love.
Your Great-Grandfath­­er,
Grandfather and me,
all married and found love like this.
In the society we live,
this is how it is done."

"No" argued me,
"I don't want,
a Loveless marriage,
Even in my dreams,
with a stranger, I can't live."

"Enough discussion,
this topic is over.
Tomorrow you will meet
your future wife,
and with her you will live
your life "
commanded Him.

A few weeks later,
I find myself,
in shackles with a stranger,
Getting married.
Standing a dumbstruck pair.

In shock I stumble,
and wake up from bed.
Relieved to see,
that it was, just a dream,
horribly gone bad.

Important Note- It is a work of fiction. Nobody is forcing me to get married. :P

A Lost Friend

Everywhere I go,
Everywhere I see,
But I find no-where,
A friend like "SHE".

A true friend,
A special woman,
who was always there,
to love and care.

Her cheerful smile,
Her caressing hand,
just her presence,
made my life grand.

She knew all my emotions,
many they may be.
She knew when to be gentle
and when to scold me.

A deep connection
between her and me,
For she knew what i was thinking,
even before I speak.

The distance between us
was just a heartbeat away.
It was her promise,
forever she will stay.

But she broke her promise
and left me alone.
To live without her
and grow painfully old.

Now I'm so very empty,
alone with a void,
with nobody to fill,
in pain and destroyed.

A few thoughts arose,
Why friends leave?
How can someone once so close,
vanish for you to grieve?

I must have been lacking,
I must have been wrong,
I wasn't the friend to her,
Now that she's gone.

I miss her so much,
She was the world to me,
How could she leave for Heaven?
It made my life Hell indeed.

Love in your every sight

I get this hilarious feeling
deep down inside,
Even though I believed
in this world, love is belied,

But every time I see you
I get this feeling divine,
Is this how it feels
to fall in Love at first sight?

I can't get you out of my mind.
My heart dances in trance.
I feel so strange after one glance,
I wish I could kiss you and do romance.

I know,
you are already mine,
But this is my love which burns
in your every sight.

As I think of you day by day,
It takes my each breathe away.
Your smile is generous
and your laugh is contagious,

God made everything beautiful
and precious.
You mesmerize me every time I see you,
I feel as if everything is really new.

My hands begin to shiver whenever you walk by,
My heart starts to pound whenever you smile with joy.
I do know what I am to you,
But i still want you to say:
"Boy, you caught my heart and locked it away.”

The FIGHT

 

 

 

 

   

 

The pain those words,
inflicted in my heart,
the anger in her eyes,
it tore me apart.

The pain's too deep,
my heart can't breathe,
thinking about those memories,
which now look a dream.

All alone.

The bottle lays empty,
cap unscrewed,
no guns, no knife,
but pills I consume.

The pain's lessened,
my sight's getting blurred,
I fell down,
and there's a thump.

I see my lover,
running towards me,
she pounds the ground,
screaming why I did this?

I ask myself, why?
It was just a fight,
was the pain so deep?
That I chose not to live.

She loved me,
always did.
But just one Fight,
and this is what I did?

It is too late,
I can see the flashes,
my life being sucked away,
my heart slowing away.

I can see the end,
And wonder why?
I was so stupid,
that now I'm gonna die.

My Heart- An Object of Comedy

I saw you, walking on road today,
But you turned around and looked the other way,
I wondered, what went wrong?
We were so good all along.

You were the best part of my life
Why did you had to leave?
How could you suddenly stop loving me,
And forget all our dreams?

I remember- having stood beside you,
Even when I disagreed,
When the world was against you,
You still had me.

I wanted to be the lover you needed,
A friend you could count on till the very end,
I promised to be there besides you,
Together we stand.

But you left me alone,
To drown in the tears I cry,
You said I wasn't meant for you,
No matter how hard I try.

I don’t know what I’ve done?
To make you turn on me.
Even if I was wrong once,
Why didn’t you stand beside me?

How could you forget all we’ve shared?
How could you say that you don't care?
I’m really scared, I cant stop crying,
I don’t know what to do? how to let go of you?

I believed I couldn't live without you,
That you are the air I need,
I blinded myself from what's true,
But, you made my heart bleed.

Sitting alone, looking through the window pane,
As I watch the rain,
I laughed silently, no one could hear,
I said softly, "Those are my tears"

Wiping those tears,
I wondered, why me?
Why did my heart,
Became the object of comedy?

Just Another Day.

Its just another day, you say,
A day which ends as comes the night,
But I know deep inside my heart,
That it is not at all right.

"It's just another day," you said
And as I was about to tell you
Just how wrong you are.
I realized that she was right.

It's just another day to celebrate
The girl she is, the baby she is still,
And the soul-mate
She will always be to me.

It's just another day to hear
Her wonderful laugh,
The one that makes me happy,
Even if I'm sad and down.

It's just another day to see
That smile,
That can melt my heart,
And make me do things which I once never could.

It's just another day to look
Into her eyes
And see them forever looking back at me.
The most beautiful I've ever seen.

It's just another day to taste
Her kiss upon my lips, sweet and gentle,
And a small peck on my cheeks
When nobody is looking.

It's just another day to feel
Her arms around me,
And know that I am lucky
To be loved like this.

It's just another day for me to show her
How much she means to me,
How much I love her,
And there will never be enough days to show it.

Thank the Gods, it's just another day.
But a day like no other.

Love of my life.

The love of my life,
My heart,
My soul,
The perfect girl I've ever known.

I'l hold you close,
I'l hold you near,
I'l hold you tight,
To protect you from your fears.

I'l kiss you gently,
And say those words,
I love you baby,
Let the whole world hear.

My treasure,
My life,
With beautiful black eyes,
You are the one who keeps me alive.

We will always live together,
Happy and free,
Beautiful and precious,
That's how our life will be.

Image: Courtesy of Melvin Sabu.
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The Love ANNIVERSARY Poem.

Happy anniversary, baby
I love you with all of my heart and soul
You are my world, all of my dreams
And I want you to know that
I'll never let you go
You truly are the most important person
In my life.

Baby, not only have you been my lover
But also my best friend
Through good times and bad
We've stayed by each others sides
Holding on tightly to each other
In each other we have found
Our happiness, our peace, and our home.

Through the trials, obstacles
And even the distance
We haven't let it phase us
As we show the world that
Our love runs deep and true
That our bond is too strong to break
And throughout everything
We are forever devoted to each other.

I can never express enough
How much I love you
How much I care about you
And how much I can't live without you
You truly are my soul mate,
My angel, and my piece of Heaven on earth
God has truly blessed us
For years now and
I know He will continue to do so.

Baby, I can't wait for the day
When we take that walk
And take that 7 vows in front
Of our family and friends
Pledge our love to be everlasting
Through better or worse
For richer or poorer, in sickness
And in health
Until death do us part.

We do, yes we do
Pledge to always and forever be true
We do, on our anniversary we do.

I see you..

I remember us,
the days we spent,
and the love we shared,
It was always you and me.

But now when I see you,
I remember our fights,
the mistakes and lies,
Still when I close my eyes,
All I see is you.


I remember us,
the way we used to be,
I'd hold you in my arms,
your smile so sweet to me.

But now when I see you,
you look right through me,
I feel so alone now,
Still when I close my eyes,
All I see is you.


All the love in our heart,
the memories in our mind,
I know this is not the end,
its our story which I will tell..

I dream only of your love,
and happiness in life,
which we will share,
And now with open eyes,
All I want to see is you.

Waiting for You.

Waiting for you GIRL everyday,
around your corner in the pouring rain.

Thinking that you might never come,
my heart stops and it goes numb.

Dreaming of you baby all the time,
wanna just hold you and make you mine.

I wish I to get you in my life,
I will then love you DAY and NIGHT.
<3 :)

( Inspired by the song: She will be loved - Maroon 5 )

Love the child in you....

I love the child in you,
so sweet and innocent.

I love the mischief in your eyes,
and the naughty smile on your cheeks.

I love the way you speak,
it shows that you care for me.

I love the touch of your hands,
and the way you play with my hair.

I love the smile we share,
it gives happiness to me.

I love the time we spend,
coz' it brings out the child in me.